And you as a whole have been transformed
into pure emotion for me
30. First step on the way to the Union is awareness. Becoming conscious, on an earthly level, follows an intense emotional processing. So, we understand that emotions play an especially important role in the evolution of the soul, therefore we must not seek apathy. The more man ascends, all the more sensitive his psychism becomes and is wounded more easily. We must not identify this with a weakness of the soul but with a change in the spectrum of vibrations: becoming easily emotional is a characteristic of expansion of the field of man's identification; it presupposes a course that goes way back for the human soul and leads towards actions of assistance and solidarity.
You are ill. Insensitive silence is a serious illness.
Apathy is a state that most people identify with heartlessness. Apathy is, on the contrary, a mental state of full vigilance and sensitivity, conscious sym-pathy*, but at the same time a state of disidentifying with those issues that block the mind and the body. In other words, for someone to be apathetic means that he actively participates in the earthly scenarios of life which unfold around him or within him too and he invests thought and emotion in them, but at the same time he recognizes their temporary nature. So, apathy protects him from the corrosion of the core of his existence, and makes him realize that he belongs to eternity, while what suffers, is his material side, the one he borrowed from the material universe, in order to build the "temple of his soul", the organ which will materialize the melody of his spirit in the specific life.
(* The word comes from the Greek verb "sympascho" which derives from the prefix "syn-"
that means "together with", where the "n" before the following word becomes "m", and the verb "pascho", which means "I suffer". Therefore the word "sympathia" means the state of the soul where it suffers together with someone.)
Therefore, be careful of all those who use apathy in order to legitimize heartlessness. Apathy works even subconsciously for those who believe in Eternal Life, whenever they are in some phases embroiled in earthly turmoil. We must not seek it, then, because it acts even without our order as a safety valve, which protects the soul from panic. Let us not be afraid to experience deeply whatever comes up on our way, because then we will have used our earthly thisness correctly and fully.
Without enthusiasm – within enthusiasm I include rage – mankind cannot work. But in a fit of enthusiasm it does not work well. The enthusiasm must pass in order for it to work effectively, but even then – in the sober condition – it accomplishes deeds, which derive from the period of enthusiasm. Whoever becomes highly enthusiastic, can not do a good job; neither can he, who never becomes enthusiastic.
We must experience the emotions that are being created within us as much as we can, because every emotion is useful and besides, this is actually the reason for our return to earth. Let us not be afraid of sorrow or pain, because there are no "bad" emotions: bad is the absence of good, therefore bad is the absence of emotions, the inertia of the soul, insensibility, heartlessness. The man who feels is the man who lives, so long as he does not identify his deeper existence with the experiencing of emotional situations. And it is natural for this experiencing to move within the whole range of the soul’s emotions. Let us contemplate every emotion as a colour, and let us consider how monotonous life would be if we saw everything only as red or green. When we combine all of them we shall reach white – the world, which we created will be as a whole transformed into pure emotion for us – and that is the emotional condition of apathy – but this concerns another life.
Therefore, let us not censor, but not identify with, either.
I don't mind if the winter outside
spreads mist, clouds, and cold.
Within me it is spring, true joy.
What's the use of the spring outside
growing flowers and sowing greenery!
Within me it is winter when the heart aches.
In olden days Shakespeare had condensed the "Good and Bad weather" into the phrase "nothing is bad, if thinking doesn't make it so" and before him Epictetus: "it's not things themselves that upset people, but the doctrines about them".
Those that delight, are those that embitter.
31. Emotions are the extract of experiences, which the soul brings with it from the Beginning of the World, and they have the character of primordial power. We are used to attributing the emotion to the sub-ject that functioned stimulatingly, so as to emerge from the subconscious, but this is wrong. Just like a catalyst acts as a means for two chemical substances to react, in this way the sub-ject also acts as a catalyst which finally creates an emotion.
In reality nothing derives from outside: "crises" derive from our own self, which has not found balance. Identifying with the self, meaning the coincidence of the inner voice with consciousness is the one that brings tranquility and peace of the soul. Then, man feels strengthened and no external stimulus can upset him. Besides, external stimuli are the cause and not the reason for the internal state. Even individuals, humans, are neither capable of changing the course of the soul's orbit in the slightest, nor of influencing the fluctuation of the soul’s energy, except only if they are purposely used as a cause for it.
House, clubs, neighbourhood: a setting
that I see, and where I walk; for years and years.
I created you amid joy and amid sorrows:
And you as a whole have been transformed into pure emotion for me.
with so many incidents, with so many things.
When you love, you yourself are the responsible one, the creator of your emotion, and the other person is simply he, with whose contribution this emotion is being drawn up to the surface. Even if he is absent, you will be able to create the same feeling again, because you are the one responsible for it; he has simply been the pretext, and pretexts may be given from many external factors. So, whoever is capable of loving, always finds "something" onto which to project this love, and under no circumstances is the person who does not love, going to be worthy of it.
Certainly, love can not be restrained by anything. Whether we decide to love someone or not, does not depend on any factor of the "external" world – as, for instance, whether this person accepts this role we are attributing to him, whether it is socially acceptable or "proper", etc. – and when between us fate has placed a terrible barrier: unrelenting generations of interpreters and experts, most mistakes are made exactly at this point: instead of facing the world as a mirror of their self, people reverse the situation and they themselves become the mirrors of the world – which is none other than their lower self, since it constitutes an impure jumble of tendencies, points of view, moods and every kind of "complexity" that moves away from the One.
For however long man identifies with the periphery of his existence, he moves away from the compact core and is subjected to constant swirls, which finally chase him towards the infinite.
The reverse movement of identifying with the self, always leads to internal tranquility, completeness, happiness.
If Self is a Pyramid, then the internal evolution is a spiral movement with a circumference that is constantly becoming smaller in diameter, in order to end in the one peak, meaning a hyper-dense point, which contains within itself every movement up until the infinite.
The reverse movement – from the point to the infinite – describes the world of anti-spirit, namely of matter, from the moment of the Big Bang onwards. But even each and every event of our life that we experience and until we conquer it conscience wise, follows this very spiral course. In the largest diameter emotions are many and intense, more "dramatic", and the more awareness deepens, the smaller the circumference of the circle becomes, so as to end in the apathy of the moment (point), where all things partial and opposite are contained, potentially, i.e. condensed in apathy.
This is the point of apathy, the top of the rugged mountain, the point of Love. The man who reaches it completes the cycle he had started with his first incarnation, finishes his course on the earthly dimension and passes over to another level of beingness. The soul returns to the point, the One, on the analogy of the return of the universe to the point of its birth, to that hyper-dense moment, where all its mass was concentrated in one point.
"We are standing slightly higher than the so-called "developed people", meaning the perfect spiritual growth has made us simple again, but simple without ignorance. We have completed the whole cycle. Consequently, we naturally returned to the first point. The others stayed half way. They neither know, nor surmise where the road ends".
Perfect spiritual growth has made us simple again, because man becomes simple, when his consciousness spreads, broadens, expands, which are qualities of the Spirit. This man is the "infant" according to Jesus, the "child" according to Heraclitus. "I praise you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because you have hidden these things from the wise and learned, and revealed them to little children" (…) "because it is given to them to know the mysteries of the kingdom of heaven", (Matthew 11:25, 13:11). Symbolically, this is the course of man from Adam up to Jesus, from Homo Sapiens up to Homo Deus, the Man-God.
The man who feels that the world, his inner universe, which he himself created, has as a whole been transformed into pure emotion for him, has touched the hyper-dense point of Love, the borders of his godly nature, and starts experiencing it. He knows that the specific feeling he experiences every single moment is indispensable to him in order to ascend to apathy, with the meaning of the hyper-abridgment of the emotions. He is at that point of his ascent, where the top of the mountain is beginning to be revealed in front of his eyes and he knows that he is walking towards it.
Accuracy and epigrammatic completeness of Poetry – you as a whole have been transformed into pure emotion for me – meets the science of Physics: "The completely different kinds of particles", Hawking says, "which we observe at low energies are in fact found to be all the same type of particle, only in different states. At high energies all these particles behave similarly. The effect is rather like the behaviour of a roulette ball on a roulette wheel. At high energies (when the wheel is spun quickly) the ball behaves in essentially only one way – it rolls round and round. But as the wheel slows, the energy of the ball decreases, and eventually the ball drops into one of the thirty-seven slots in the wheel.
In other words, at low energies there are thirty-seven different states in which the ball can exist. If, for some reason, we could only observe the ball at low energies, we would then think that there were thirty-seven different types of ball!
At some very high energy, called the Grand Unification energy, all these forces would have the same strength and so could just be different aspects of a single force. At this energy the different matter particles, would also all be essentially the same".
Then man is identified with all sides of his self: any side of his self that may emerge from the succession of the external events, is acceptable to him, and he can find joy in it. Like the old mirror which had seen and seen again, / during its many years of existence, / thousands of things and faces, he has accepted, loved, and included everybody and everything in the unity of his self, since he has successively experienced all the situations of the soul and has composed them within himself.
32. Man functions within an energy spectrum. We could liken it to a musical octave. If he constantly remained on one note, life would be monotonous, but also tiring, since movement ensures the successive functioning of all the muscle, nervous, mental systems and their successive deactivation-relaxation. Within the eternity of the Universe, the spiral evolution-alteration safeguards the normal development of life. If we look back to the universal laws, we shall find the wisdom there. Let us not seek a standstill in an emotion or a situation, then, because this contravenes the laws of Harmony. We must be ready to follow the changes, to flow into things, with the certainty of a fish when it lets itself go freely with the sea’s currents.
One monotonous day follows another
identical monotonous one. The self-same
things will happen again and again –
the same moments find us and leave us.
A month goes by and ushers in another month.
One can easily surmise things about to come:
they are those tedious ones of yesterday.
And the morrow ends up by not resembling a morrow any more.
When we feel melancholy, we do not always need to look for some logical reason: we may simply have to vibrate on a different "note" of the universal scale, so that our body loosens up. Let us simply experience every moment as we feel it, without trying to blackmail emotions; yet, as we know, emotion is the most genuine expression of the connection with the Universal Soul.
The important thing is to separate fatigue from denial. The antidote to fatigue, usually, is found in something simple:
No matter how rundown you are, no matter how many distresses are pressuring you, when you go out and walk around a plain of the City or along a seashore you feel that you were somewhat relieved – the Soul of the Byzantine Nature whispers to you "God will provide". I vividly felt this influence on the night which I describe.
The more man's life is enlightened, he realizes that even the most difficult conditions do not cause him sorrow or depression any longer, but joy for life, eros and ecstasy for the Creation.
He then experiences true happiness. Often people confuse this situation of the soul with feelings which concern the ethereal body: firstly, happiness should not be identified with joy or satisfaction or enthusiasm; these are emotions, and as such they have the following characteristics which oppose the concept of happiness, transience and dependence on causes. Happiness is characterized by perpetuity, meaning it is beyond time, since it is a situation concerning the soul and therefore it has the same characteristics as it, meaning it is not subject to the dimensions of time and space. Therefore, neither does it depend on any fact – event in time-space –, and that is why it is dissociated from the emotions, which are products of the self that is subsumed in time-space and which are directly dependent on the movement of manifested man (namely his "material" side) in the also manifested world and his interaction with it.
(…) When happiness comes
it gives less joy
than what one expects. However
this has been clearly gained: we were spared from hopes
The living and warm happiness is, therefore, a much wider state, and can function as a basis on which all emotions are manifested each time, even the most "unpleasant" ones, such as sorrow, pain, anxiety, fear. This basis, not only does not hinder their manifestation, but on the contrary it allows them to reach their full size because it is presupposed that man's essence lies beyond separations, in the hyperconcentrated One, where as a matter of fact countless different hues and kinds of emotions, potentially exist. No manifestation of any emotion influences the basis, since it is about two different levels. Let us look at the sea: no matter how much the wind may be blowing and raising huge waves, the bottom remains still and unchangeable.
How daring not to stay in the high emotional importance of the world. And to beautify it, and work for it as you did before. Even if it is only the surface, which you see as you stand and which you have to deal with and – ignorant as you are and do not forget it – it may have an importance which it does not name, but humanity instinctively feels it and so do you when you are healthy.
When we seek happiness, first of all let us not identify it with situations that have no relation to it. Besides, the man who does not feel sorrow or anxiety is not happy, but rather dead, because he will equally be able to feel neither joy, nor tranquility, nor any other emotion. After all, experiencing happiness on another level, will be the one to colour with interest – so too, by extension with “joy” – even an incident which brought sorrow and distress.
Real unhappiness is the devitalization, i.e. the repression of the functioning of the centres of the heart (emotions) and of the throat (communication).
The man who has found happiness, even when temporary calamities torment him
lives with the joy of imperishability in his eyes.