Verses of sensual pleasure, the exquisite, which is heading towards barren and unfavourable love
43. People who go in for demanding athletic activities are exposed to quite a few injuries, so much so that sometimes it is an oxymoron: they choose physical exercise, which offers health, but because of the constant bruises they seem to be in worse "health" than the rest of the people. However, it is not so. Because a distinction must be made between injury and illness. Injury is an unavoidable contusion, due to the engagement in difficult activities, which derives from the environment, while illness derives from within man and for this reason it successively influences all his bodies, from the most ethereal to the material one. So he, who bears injuries, can be in full health, contrary to someone who, because of stagnation, does not exercise and seems intact and "healthy".
This example is worth keeping in order to better comprehend certain states of the soul. The man who loves the activity of the soul and develops it, most of the time feels hurt, precisely because of the injuries he undergoes during his confrontation with the external environment, but, overall, he is the healthier one, and not whoever avoids exposing themselves to conjunctures with a high degree of "dangerousness" as regards their emotional world.
Naturally, this is not valid on all occasions, since there are people who live a quiet and safe life, because this is what they must do, meaning that is their life plan. They do not avoid anything, but nor do they go after anything; but they have been called for this, consequently they keep pace correctly with their Self.
The important thing is for all those who are often struck by injuries, to know that their life's work leads them to high peaks and they necessarily walk along rough roads.
Never before has he loved with such great
passion. But the beautiful fulfillment of love
is missing; the fulfillment is missing
that must be intensely desired by both of them.
From now on mind, work the best you can.
So, whoever climbs the rugged mountain, will live through the supreme human experience, the one of barren love: he does not need a love that would offer him something since he has already experienced that. He needs a love in which he will be asked to give, without response. This love will lead him to recognize the boundaries of fear at some point, to demolish it once and for all, to overcome the barrier it puts to experiencing the grand Man-God. The thought behind the thought, the primary force that moves the thread of life, is our desire to experience the authenticity of our entire divine Self and not the desire to rest. Because resting means to deny the endless and attach to the partial.
So, the traveler who is thirsty to climb there and to live, happy (…), where the sun will be warmer and the air clearer, composes the
Verses of sensual pleasure, the exquisite, which is heading
towards barren and unfavourable love.
Whoever truly loves, knows that no wound bleeds forever. Besides, he pays attention only to the wounds of his beloved ones. Because, only then are you convinced of Love; not when you are receiving it but when you are giving it. And he, who can give love, is worthy of it, and he knows it and still has it even if they deny it to him; while he who denies it to others, will never encounter it.
Love is a feeling of wholeness and safety. Whoever loves cannot feel empty, even when he is externally alone, because love is an inner activity, a unity with the entire Universe – and not isolation.
Whoever loves, gives precedence to his interest for the other and not for his self. Love is not weakness; it is power, bravery, inner activation. It is not possible for love to leave us inert and disorientated. We always know what to do, when love is illuminating our way, because this action has crucial features: it does not exhaust us psychologically, i.e. it leaves us more complete than before as regards to the power of our soul, it is not directed toward our self, it does not take into consideration comparisons or levels of reciprocation.
It is very important to confirm our emotional domination, and this is succeeded through hard trial and exercise. Only a noble love can give fruits prolifically, otherwise the seed of the fruit will be carrying the imperfect.
From now on everything is over. My life has gone black.
This world will have no joy for me, ever again.
Disappointment from the "failure" of a love affair comes because we connect the things happening within ourselves with the causes for their appearance which are found externally. Individuals act as chemical catalysts, but they must not be charged with the responsibility for the reactions. Everything that happens to us concerns us exclusively and uniquely – and would not have happened if we were different.
For as long as the Truth shines, we will discover the greatness of the Word within us, we shall be flooded with the trust which belongs to those who live with the Truth, being ready to bring any person down and endure every loss.
It is a victory, this last trial of the barren love, victory and prevalence of power; victory of individuality, when the idealized people next to us are brought down, victory of life. Let us not be afraid then, because it is not possible to lose something we ourselves are. We do not have love, we are love, even if all that we see next to us disappears, even if the world we step on tumbles. No form stops the Light, no space imprisons the Eternal.
Because man's real need is his reunion in the divine Body, the return to Unity, and this is fulfilled through real love. Our own love fulfils us because it brings us closer to our old, divine self, to our true divine thisness. Besides, when the offering of love is pure, without the involvement of selfishness, then not only do we not expect the result it will have on the other, but we wish, out of humbleness, to remain in the shadows.
44. The more spiritual life deepens the less man identifies with the specific body his soul has worn in its present incarnation. He realises that the body is something he has borrowed from the lower material levels for a certain period of time, and this obviously neither belongs to him, nor is eternally his.
At some moment of his evolutionary course man is destined to transform the energy he receives from the universe – through the vehicle of sexuality – by higher centres. He will then start using it for the production of his spiritual and creative work, spiritualizing at the same time his own self to an ever increasing degree.
My life goes through fluctuations of desire, through conceptions – sometimes fulfilled – erotic ones.
My work tends towards thinking. Maybe rightly so.
Expressing myself more widely, perhaps an artistic plane would not be sufficient for me to remain. Perhaps, its nature, does not allow it to be enough for me.
Sexual energy, as we have already said, is the only means that can lead man to Unity. It constitutes the bond between Matter and Spirit. Just as it helps man to be "born"
in the material world, meaning to pass from the spiritual existence inside a material body, in the same way it helps him be "reborn" in the spiritual world, return fully conscious to his divine nature.
But how the craftsman's life has profited.
Tomorrow, the day after or years later, the powerful
verses will be written that had their beginning right here.
It is then that "life profits", then "he writes the powerful verses" whose "beginning was made on the mattress of pleasure". Only when man feels that he has exhausted the outlets and satisfactions of natural life, having covered the whole cycle of earthly experiences, can he focus his consciousness towards his spiritual substance.
I've gazed on beauty so much that my vision is filled with it.
Besides, spirituality is the other aspect of sexuality; it is the same energy, differently transformed: expressing himself more widely, the nature of man's erotic life does not permit it to be sufficient for him. Exhausted by heavenly intoxication from the serving of pleasure, finally when he falls down on the way, then his luck is enviable; because then he will start experiencing his spiritual nature.
The ancients (Greeks) worked the way I do.
I work like the ancients (Greeks). They wrote history, they created philosophy, … lovesick – so many of them – the same as me.
The enlightened man does not seek to leave the world that raised him and does not underestimate the lessons it is giving him, or its value. Earthly thisness is sacred, since Our Lord Jesus Christ was clothed in it as well. He attributes to it the holiness it deserves, and honours it by seeking to experience all its facets. Those who renounce it, do so only when the deed they have been entrusted with by God, demands so.
Some people, like Simon for instance who climbed up the pillar or Mother Gavrilia, come with a certain specified mission. For them neither choices nor crossroads exist because their course is well defined. They only follow in the steps that are being dictated to them. Besides, no one becomes an ascetic in order to find God and his empty life crying within him, / and his desires wearing their mourning black, but on the contrary, because he has met Him, because honest love, the outspoken one, the revealing one has spoken in his heart.
This stage of the soul's life cannot become understood by earthly people, as it does not belong to their dimension. They, completely absorbed in endless discussions about the value of Lamon, a poet who filled Beirut with enthusiasm, felt the momentary shiver by their accidental magnetic neighbourliness with the spiritual world, when their mind flew to Simon, in order to return afterwards, with the same zeal, for criticism, evaluation, classification "Syria's first poet", second, etc.
Ah, don't smile; thirty five years, just think –
winter, summer, night and day, thirty five
years he lives on a pillar and martyrs.
Before we were born – I am twenty nine years old,
you, I think, are younger than me –
before we were born, imagine it,
Simon climbed up the pillar
and ever since remains there before God.
God has placed the stones exactly where they must be. No stone resembles the other. No path of life is the same for two people. Each one has a distinct life task and must find it and take care of it.
Just like life is an inheritance and you've done nothing to earn it as a reward, in the same way Pleasure must be an inheritance. Don't shut yourself inside your house; but keep the windows open, wide open, to hear the first sounds of the soldiers' passing, when the Regiment of Pleasure arrives with music and flags.
It is known that the activation of the centres in man's spiritual body cannot be achieved with intellectual effort, but only by going through the experiences which can stimulate each centre. And in this case the activation is a task "outside man" (the incarnated one). The aim is full awareness and not avoidance. Even the experience of instincts and "low" emotional states is necessary, no step is less necessary in the path of the Son of Man.
The evaluation of people, by extension, according to an enhanced functioning of one or several centres is, on the one hand out of place, since nobody can safely distinguish such a thing neither for his fellow-man – nor even perhaps, for his own self– and on the other hand it is unethical, because it serves reasons for personal development or for the undertaking of a specific mission, therefore it is absolutely necessary to be just so.
(…) the passersby were looking at him
and asked one another if they knew him,
and if he was a Syrian Greek, or a foreigner.
But a few who observed with greater care
understood and stepped aside.
And as he disappeared under the arcades,
among the shadows and among the evening lights –
heading towards the district which comes alive
only at night, with orgies and debauchery
and every sort of drunkenness and lust –
they wondered which of Them he might be,
and for what shady pleasure of his
he had descended to the streets of Selefcia,
from the Worshipped, most Venerable Chambers.
The great leaning towards the spiritual world creates an imbalance in the development of man's several bodies. Our withdrawal from physical life can create an overgrown Astral body and disorientate the overall sensitive nature of the soul. We must counterbalance the earthly dimension with the spiritual one, this is absolutely accomplishable. We must be able to work with logic and the senses equally, while at the same time we manifest our spiritual nature; to conquer the perilous balance of Myrtias:
"Fortified by theory and by study,
I shall not fear my passions like a coward.
I shall give my body to sensual pleasures,
to dreamy delights,
to the most daring erotic desires,
to the lustful impulses of my blood, without
a single fear, for whenever I wish –
and I shall have the will, fortified
as I'll be by theory and by study –
at the critical moments I shall find
my spirit again, as it was before, ascetic.”
Life is difficult when we experience "daily routine", and the exercise presupposes the practice of it and not the isolation in a spiritual environment. Let us not be afraid that we will lose our spirituality while we associate with the earthly thisness of life. We shall have to learn to maintain both of them, this is the power we are called to have.
45. He who has not been deceived by the blasphemous who told him that the service is dangerous and laborious; he who felt that the serving of sensual pleasure is a constant joy, ascertains at some moment that the intensity of the erotic relationship in his life has cooled down.
But we of the Art
sometimes with intensity of the mind, and of course only
for a short time, create pleasure
which seems almost material.
No man is capable of coping with the expectations that "great love", the memory of the divine Erotic Love creates within us, because that is destined only for the Eternal and the Insuperable, for God Himself. People who project this emotion onto simple people, connect them with it – and their self -, and try to experience it believing that the other person "provoked" it in them, are condemned to be disappointed and become embittered, because they tried to "close the Spirit in a bottle" … Love must not be connected with individuals, just as the form must not be connected with the immaterial spirit. Love is not subjected to limitations and conditions. If there is someone who helped us in a specific conjunction of circumstances to recall it from the space of the Eternal and the Infinite, after that we should not identify him with It, because it is as if we identify the moment with time.
This is also what the first of the ten Commandments mentions, when it exhorts not to love another as much as the Lord and our God, and not to connect any other earthly person with Love which only in the boundaries of Him can we render. This is what Jesus means when he says that "no one can serve two masters" – matter and the spirit. This is the meaning of Platonic Love, the love of the soul for God, which no earthly erotic love is capable of substituting. This is the "secret marriage", as the mystics have called it, the marriage that takes place within ourselves, when we unite the conscious (earthly) part of our self with the unconscious (higher, divine) – the manifested with the non-manifested – and we restore ourselves to a complete Whole.
Eros is the safety valve for the attainment of the Work of God. Eros is the power that holds man together with the object – whether the latter is a person or a situation – and as such, it internally ensures the continuous presence of the "worker" in the place he should be. Just like the mother, who through the unappeased eros towards the newly-born child, remains attached to it, ensuring its survival, also in this way man feels eros for anything that must continue to be in his life for a certain purpose. Eros is the binding power of the Universe. And, hence, "contrary" to love, because love does not bind to a compulsory unity, but it liberates. When the deed is achieved, when the purpose is completed, then eros is transmuted into love, because the compulsory factor that created the dependence, ceases to exist: when the infant grows older, then the need for the mother ceases, hence the tenacious bond loosens and the binding eros is transformed into liberating love.
Relatively speaking, actual eros, the eros of man towards God, is transformed into liberating love; when man manages to free himself from the dependence of the need of God, then he will have found Him once and for all. Whoever believes in himself does not "need" God, because only then does God cohabit in his house.
This man advances on the path of Bliss without qualms and fears. He becomes a worthy co-worker in the divine Deed, he becomes the bridge that carries the bliss of the ethereal life to the earthly one. He sows the light as if he were a gardener, the seed of love and truth into people's souls, he plants in their hearts flowers of the exquisite gardens of another place, / where Theories, and Rhythms, and Insights dwell.
Guardians of the divine Plan are
(…) those who in their life
are committed and guard Thermopylae.
Never wavering from duty;
just and forthright in all their actions,
though with pity and compassion.
They honour their less enlightened fellow men, because in that way they honour their Creator and His deed. When the sophist Medon meets the barren and unfavourable love, on the face of a heartless king, Ptolemeus Filopator, he ought not to deplore him, but on the contrary honour him, and that is what the Poet is calling him to do.
Ptolemy Philopator, who as known, had killed his relatives and his friends, is royally entertaining in his garden Medon the sophist, researcher of psychic powers.
The king behaves arrogantly to the stranger.
Some time ago the sophist, a poor man,
offered his work to a great ruler
in corruptive Rome. The king; "Take this
mna* and go. Small talk bores me."
"Oh, insolence, insolence! Studying the infinite
I inscribed each fiery feeling
all of my heart on this
papyrus…" But, out of pity for the dictator,
he interrupted the vibrant epics. –
Honour Ptolemy Philopator.
(* Mna is the ancient Greek currency.)
Jesus once came into this life and tried to show the Way of Truth to the people. We can understand the anguish of the realization, the anguish of His Soul, when these people, for whom he had accepted to be "imprisoned" in the chains of Matter – and what's more knowing the inevitable – foreseeing that Ephialtes will appear in the end, / and that the Medes will eventually break through – they were unfaithful to His words or did not manage to hear them at all. However, he struggled to plant the seed in the barren soil as well as in the more fertile, He accepted Fate without complaint, hiding the unbearable pain of Solitude inside His Love for all those who were not following Him. And He continued to show them the Way, outdoing His Self who asked for Redemption. He continued talking to them, forgetting the grief of Uniqueness. And He forgave them, even when everything appeared as if the sacrifice was made in vain, while he was suffering the most cruel pain, the pain provoked by the strike of the beneficiary to the benefactor. But his Word was saying that "Love is long suffering, does not ask for itself", no matter how much it may be suffering through the ignorance of the others.
These things that here like wakeful guards we keep,
wounds and secrets which we shut inside,
with weighty anguish each and every day,
there, we will speak out freely and clearly.
Together with Jesus so many other Masters returned to earth in order to save the people; brave Generals of the earthly world, who decided to be mobilized in order to guard the spiritual Thermopiles, spoke the truth with pity and compassion and experienced the love which is barren and unfavourable. They spoke to people with the Word, not with their own words and that illuminated their expression.
And some men arrived from the frontiers
and said that there are no barbarians anymore.
Which struggle is nobler than the struggle of Love?