10. Those who constantly renew the illusion ...

 

What's up baby? Where did we get lost? In what endless solitudes do we consume ourselves without  even always realizing it?  Where is life leading us and where is our resistance? I have given myself up to pointless comings and goings with a permanent sense of futility ... maybe it's the summer, perhaps my personal moment has reached zero again, we'll see ...

The Way is melancholic ...  Perhaps it doesn't happen this way for some people ...  those who constantly renew the illusion ... it's because they see differently every day ... the "lucky ones" in life, the ones who are permanently "in love" with the nothing.

It's the people who have no difficulty getting into everyday trivial matters with the same interest as if it were for the first time, the moment they believe important that which is unimportant. This is how people should be in order to endure it. This is how one can see everything with a new perspective.

I don't think that you can control it. It is one of your components and it always manifests when you believe that it has gone forever. It seems that "for good" does not exist, no word with an extreme meaning lasts forever. The only words with duration are those such as "I think" or "maybe". "Never" does not exist and surely nor does "nothing". This is what I say now, but perhaps tomorrow things will be different. I constantly invalidate myself, it seems that this is my time, me who thought that I had reached a certainty. How ironic is that ...

Nevertheless, I am thinking! My relationships with everybody ...  Who do I have the greatest affinity with? Of course with you ... absolute spiritual contact, which I had never had, what I used to fabricate in order to believe that I had found it. It took me a lifetime in order to understand the illusion of my desperate seeking ... Thank goodness I didn't leave without feeling the truth. This life for you, for me is a preparation for whatever is going to follow ...  this life is the starting point of the oncoming major events ...  Now the material is smoothened in order to bear strong vibrations, and so everything will be easier!